#1 INFATUATION OR OBSESSION? #2 A SHAFT OF LIGHT IN MY DARKENED LIFE

ORDEAL STRETCH

WORTHLESS LIFE

My mood is manipulated
My mood gets change
All my feelings depend on you
But you never think in this range....

Irritation touches my heart
Pity is considered 'A Lie'
After making each one laugh
I just go back and cry...

Nothing seem worthwhile
Everything needed a leap
All my emotions are eaten up by worms
The only thing I love is to weep....

Wept and wept not to forget you
But to reduce my intense pain
All I get is a dominating memory of yours
Thus I'm left a man in chains...

Though many differences stood
Between me and you like a wall
Yet I can give up everything for you
If you promise to be there when I fall...

                     Written By - Basu Gupta

ORDEAL STRETCH

The smile didn't seem noticeable
That came from a heart in pain
Eyes were meant to behave like clouds
Which were ready to shatter tears like rain.....

Time has always been an 'eyewitness'
For my condition and being obsessed
Always wore a mask of fake emotions
To hide the thoughts so 'cursed'....

Don't know why I'm heading
Towards this kind of solitude
Never smiled but always carried a leer
Just to make up her tiring mood.....

A day appears to be of 48 hrs
And the nights are much longer
Sleep also left my hand
I only know how much I'm stronger.....

Yet you won't be able to forget
And will always remember me
Because my memories are those unforgettable leaves
Hanging on you my 'Desirable Tree'.....

                 Written By - Basu Gupta

INTIMATE PAIN

What could I say about my past
Which is so difficult to tell
Yet it revolves around my head
Like those heavenly angels pursuing in hell.....

I thought I'm ready for love
And deserve the same from you
But my fate wanted something else
Which I never desired to.....

Swallowed my pain inside
I wished of saying you that
But before I could say you moved on
It's a thing I still regret....

My condition went from bad to worse
With tears running without being stopped
No barrier seemed to exist in between
Just like a stream flowing from mountain tops....

But now that feeling is gone
No more attachment seemed present
Yet her name increases my heartbeat
And still I love her accent.....

                    Written By - Basu Gupta

A SHROUD OF THOUGHTS

Can't get you out of my mind
Can't make myself free..
What should I suppose to do
coz, you're my leaves and I'm a tree....

I can't live without you
Can't imagine that even for a second,
Not frightened even of death
But yes between us you'll be second....

I even feel disheartened
and lonely in a large crowd
Though everyone is making me feel special
Yet my condition won't make me proud.....

Silent is me,silence is everywhere
With inner thoughts fiercing so loud
Death is only the thing felt amiable
Dreaming to cover myself  with a shroud....

                     Written By - Basu Gupta